It’s been too long!!

I know it has been a long time since I have posted an entry and I apologize, no excuse!!  After my surgery on my back I settled into my mom and dad’s house down the street from mine and kind of went on a mental vacation from all of this.  It is so hard to deal with day in and day out.  I sometimes have to turn it off and “pretend” it is not really on my plate. 

I think about a year and a half ago when I was healthy and not fighting every day just to get around and I yearn for those days.  Now I feel very isolated and slooooooooooooow and I am!  I came home from the hospital in a wheel chair and now have graduated to a walker with sometimes still the wheel chair.  My strength is getting there but not totally there yet. I just got done with 16 radiation appointments so I have mostly gone to doctors appt.’s then back home with sheer exhaustion.  I also want my back totally healed before I go too many places for fear of any infection. 

I wish this were more positive but I think that is why I am reaching out.  I need more prayers prayers prayers.  I have felt kind of empty lately and know I need spiritual fulfillment.  I was on a good path for a while and have strayed and I feel it tremendously!  So many of you have been so faith full to me and my situation and I thank you for that.  I still feel so blessed from all of you!  Please keep my family and I in your prayers!      May God bless each one of you as you read this!!